Since my early teenage year, I was the person who can't easily express my emotions. Living with various kinds of people at the boarding school taught me that I can't easily tell somebody they did something wrong because it was hard not to hurt their feelings. I grew up become the girl who didn't express my feelings; I love you, I miss you. Not that kind of person. And then when I saw my friend did something wrong or irritate me, I just can talk behind their back or just keep it to myself. People labeled me as secretive, not talkative, and obedience. I was taken aback when people said that I am obedient. No please, I was not. I feel that there are bigger things that I have to take care of. Thank you. As the result, I was not that obedient with my parents (I can easily ask them back why I should do this and that), and I cry a lotttttt in front of my family members ( parents, siblings, cousins, uncles, aunties). That's why my dad thought that how can I handle myself at Buffalo living in small community. He got the point. You don't know what is lonely until you face them yourselves. trust me, I get paranoid when I heard people not getting along with their housemates or they are lonely. find support ASAP. orang takkan faham apa tu rasa kesunyian bila tak rasa. because of this lonely things, I learn to bear with people who easily hurting me errrdayyyy but still taking care of me, who knows my movement everydayyy. It was different a year ago, if I die pun nobody noticed (I'm serious).
